i hate it when im up here posting emo shit about friends and relationships and sad and giving. my logical mind tells me im going to regret it because i will realise, or rather my conscious will realise, that this is all so futile and a genuine waste of time. hell, dota is a better way to spend my time then being emo and then writing about being emo because in dota at least i have fun and im happy (in theory anyway, because im supposed to be owning pubs but im so n00b i lose most of the time but oh well.)

i am already cringing when i reread my old posts of 2 years ago. i cant imagine what will happen when i reread the posts of today 10 years later or *gasp* my sons and daughters (if finances permit, i assure you there would be plenty) read my posts on my teenage blog? cause this blog is going to stay, man. whatever happens. save for the collapse of blogger, but thats out of my control then.

rannald just told me what i wrote for the decol question was right on track, though perhaps i could have explicitly mentioned pace of decolonisation. i do hope he wasn't saying it to merely comfort me, because he has no idea how much i depend on him for affirmation when it comes to this kind of things. AFC should have been ok if i had actually wrote an outline for it so i wasn't writing the stuff for the first time. im quite sure there are missing logical links here and there, though seeing how its the weakest of my essays (hopefully, assuming the cambridge ppl agree with my take on the decol question) then i think my A is very much right on track. kenneth said anna's cousin told her that hist was easy, but as kenneth cautioned, he may simply have not realised how tricky it actually was. though thats a damn bastard and elitist way of thinking xP

its high time you spend your time caring about the people who care about you rather than those who don't, sean.