i haven't blogged in days. reason? my com crashed. i'm using my dad's laptop, but with the broadband connection. anyway,

i think i have come to a stage where i have completely lost all respect for beng. in fact i think i have more respect for spencer, and that says a lot. beng has no cca, is antisocial, has the ability to screw up lighting and sound settings for plays, cries after twisting his ankle, cries after getting shot by a rubber band, looks like a poke from me would make him cry nowadays, avoids the class during recess, or not going at all, rejecting all our offers of help, and most of all, ponning two days of school for fear of getting teased, or lackthereof. as far as i know he has no close friends in whom he can confide anything. some might say ryan and spencer are his close friends, but when beng cried ryan tried to tease him and make him laugh, which is like watturf, and spencer just stood there, unable to do anything. i doubt spencer had the experience of someone crying to him before (imagine manek doing so *gasp* and faints). i know i sound insensitive, and if any teacher reads this i would get hauled in for a long talk, my parents would receive a call, and i would be made to remove this blogpost and make a public apology. but i'm speaking the truth here, and i have evidence to back everything that i say.

i've never seen anyone react so adversely to the slightest hint of a threat to his well-being at all. if everyone did so, CLARENCE LIM DAO WEN OF 4F would be a mass-murderer in both the school and the online gaming world. similarly, jonlian would have jumped off the clocktower 3 years ago. beng appears very protected, like he has never faced any sort of mild teasing at all. i personally do not like FT1's handling of the issue, which to ask him if he has anything to say to the class, which he would of course say no (duh!). cause if you don't have anything to say, i'm certain we all certainly deserve an explanation. i say we just drag him out, and settle the issue at that moment, right there, right now, and then move on. now the whole thing is like sort of hanging in the middle of nowhere. we cannot be too protective of him, or he would suffer when he goes out to the outside world. zhiming and i were discussing this, and we both agreed that had he went to 4J, he would have jumped off in 3 days. compared to 3J, where does 4K stand in this? nowhere close. so please, reflect. are we truly unfair, evil and bad? am i talking bullshit or sense? DOES THE FAULT HERE LAY WITH BENG OR 4K?

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died in training today, too exhausted from friday. played soccer from 1pm to 4pm, then go junliang's house play tennis till 7. i think i strained my ankle ligament. you see, i was 1-on-1 with guanlin then i lobbed the ball over him and chased. i jumped to head the ball, but in trying to get the ball he pushed me, causing me to land awkwardly on my left ankle, hearing some crunching/creaking sounds in the process, before lying on the floor in agony. thank goodness as a cross-country runner my ankle ligaments are very strong, cause the ground at macritchie isn't flat, but with lots of bumps, so running there might make your foot twist here twist there and would strengthen your ankle ligaments. sometimes during training i never land properly and twist it but after a while the pain would disappear. oh i promise not to play soccer on friday ever again. on friday i shall only play tennis or swim.

WE ARE GOING CAGE ON WEDNESDAY xoxo