can someone please tell me why am i doing this

its so pitiful, like some little puppy licking its own wounds

insecurity, its all about insecurity

or is it?

think lines, not boxes.

screw the bubbles; its how, not what.

there is nothing to think about. it is a foregone conclusion. i should stick to my principles, and what my head tells me. impossible, not worth the short-term gratification. not good enough means not good enough, no two ways about it. anything and yes, without a doubt, are completely 2 different things. deal with tangibles and facts, rather than intangibles and imagination.

Job 38:11
Good News Bible

now that you know it, bear that in mind. period.

i live a decadent lifestyle.

i woke up at 1130am, and my first meal of the day was at 930pm, 10 hours later, and well into supper time. how did i spend my time in between? watching digimon adventure and its 02 sequel, as well as the 2nd 3rd and 4th movies. which though quite lame, aren't as lame as the pokemon ones. no, i digress, i'm the lamest one. i actually watched them at the age of 18 at the expense of my food, water, homework and housework. yea, my first drink of water for the day was at 930pm too, a tehbing, and its a wonder i didn't faint or get a headache before that. i don't get gastric pains, which may not be good thing; they would have forced me to eat whether i liked it or not.

i just saw argentina get destroyed 4-0 by the germans. pre-match, i expected a close but open encounter, with the genius of messi to prove too much for the teamwork of the germans; germany may have a talented bunch of youngsters, but argentina have the most talented youngster in the world. post-match, and it is has been proven that though argentina have the most talented youngster in the world, germany has A TEAM of talented youngsters. and of course, a proper coach. in individual sports, if you're the best in the world, you can afford not to have a coach, like federer and woods, for example. you cannot say the same for team sports though; a coach is definitely very important, he sets the framework for the entire team to function. maradona's structure depended too much on the individual genius of his players to shine, rather than the sum total of their parts as befitting that of a team sport. and its honestly quite difficult to do anything when the moment u cut the ball back to your left foot, you come face to face with 3 germans willing to do anything to stop you.

maradona needs to realise that for all the media hype, messi is not a reincarnation of him. yes they play with the same style: very quick, brilliant control, left-footed, short, low cg. but they apply their skills differently. messi is not a proper trequatista, utilising the space behind the forwards to wreck havoc any way he deem fit. there is no point in granting him full creative freedom because he doesnt know how to exploit it. he may have done relatively well in the previous games in this position, but that is more of a tribute to his footballing ability rather than his footballing brain. at barca, he is an inside-forward, when put one-on-one with a full-back, the conclusion is foregone. playing him as a trequatista minimises his impact, because he would be pressured from the back by the midfielders, faced with the bumbling centre-backs, and in the case of germany, full-backs as well, such is the lack of width of this argentine team, courtesy of playing inverted wingers and centre-backs at full-back.

and while we're at the point about impact, maradona, for all his footballing genius, didn't exactly have the greatest of goalscoring records did he? discounting his early days in the argentine league, he averaged about 18 goals a season at napoli. by contrast, messi has scored 38 goals in 51 games the previous season, and 47 goals in 53 games this season. my point: maradona, using his outrageous footballing talent, contributes to the team by exerting his playmaking influence as a trequatista behind the forwards, contributing less through goals. messi, using his own outrageous footballing talent, contributes to his team through sheer goals by consistently beating his man on the right, rather than exerting any playmaking influence on the game itself. in short, maradona would serve himself to recognise and accept that messi cannot be played in the same way as he would play himself.

i wanted to drink a can of carlsberg during the 2nd half, but decided against it; damn lonely to drink yourself. in retrospect, perhaps i should have; might have made the thrashing a little easier to swallow.

2006
rude
defiant
lazy
emotionally weak

2008
unreliable
over-competitive
insensitive

2009

insecure
nasty
superficial
defiant in a different way
naiive
insocialble
insensitive
petty

2010

fickle
superficial
unmotivated
indecisive
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